A story about Mary

Mary, who lived in a small town, told her pastor and her whole church that she had a vision where she spoke with Jesus, this dream where she was in his presence and she told everyone how amazing it was. The pastor didn’t believe her, he wasn’t so sure about all the dreams and vision stuff, so he invited her over and asked her some questions. He tried to figure out if she was okay, was she stressed, was she sleeping enough. Everything seemed to check out, but the pastor still wasn’t convinced. So he asked her, “If you have another vision can you ask God something for me? Can you ask what sin I struggled with as a young man?” Mary was surprised by her pastor’s requested but she agreed. A few weeks go by and rumors spread that Mary had another dream. So the pastor called her in and asked her the same questions. When everything checked out he asked, “well did you remember the question?” Mary answered, “well yeah, how could I forget.” "Oh really" the skeptical pastor said, “what did Jesus say to you?” Mary answered, “Well I asked Jesus what sin you struggled with and he just said 'I don’t remember'." 

I was going through a YouVersion plan on my iPhone and I came across this video that included this story. This has been a rough week for me so as I listened this was not the ending I was expecting. 

His basis is coming from Jeremiah 31:31 which is one of the only prophecy’s in the Old Testament that is speaking of the New Covenant that is to come. God is the one sharing the information and He says

33 For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, declares the Lord: I will put my law within them, and I will write it on their hearts. And I will be their God, and they shall be my people. 34 And no longer shall each one teach his neighbor and each his brother, saying, ‘Know the Lord,’ for they shall all know me, from the least of them to the greatest, declares the Lord. For I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more.”

& He will remember our sins no more.

So many times I sit in the shame and disappointment I believe God is looking at me with. The thing is , I have been learning about who God is all my life. He is painted as something different starting from Sunday school in elementary to high school ministry to the Sunday services but the constant thing is God hates sin. He is perfect and pure and we are not, that is why Jesus had to come. So, with this fact, my brain automatically builds my identity as sin. So when I sin, God hates what I have done.... thus me. I didn’t realize how deep my shame went and the lies that I have built in my head until I heard this story. 

So in case you need to hear it...

You are not your sin.

You are not defined based on your previous mistakes.

You are not defined based on your future mistakes.

Your identity in Christ is not based on your days actions.

You sin. You are not perfect. God knows this and it isn’t just something he learned recently.
 He knows. He knew. Before Jesus Died. Before time began. 

So when you sin, do not sit in shame. Do not allow your thoughts to build this wall between your sorry self and God’s face that you have painted with disappointment. See it for what it really is. A chance to grow. A chance to try and show God that you know who you are in Him and that is more than enough. Seek the truth in the situation instead of tearing yourself down. Learn from it then share it with others. 

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